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The Things I’ve Learned While Carrying a Little Pea Inside My Pod

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I was celebrating my 32th birthday when I second guessed myself before ordering a third round of mojitos. “It’s been a while since the last time I’ve used my Kotex pads in my beach bag”, I thought to myself.

 

The next day we were flying to Orlando, Florida to go to Halloween Horror Nights + Epcot’s Food and Wine Festival, so I did what any slightly paranoid human being would do. I took a lab pregnancy test.

 

It came out positive.

 

That’s the moment my life changed. In an instant. One minute, I was extremely excited about wine tasting + upside down roller coaster riding. The next, I could only think of one thing:

 

I’m going to be a mom!!!

 

I’M GOING TO BE A MOM!!!

 

I’M GOING TO BE A MOM!!!

 

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Everything else took the passenger seat.

 

Now I must confess, before I found out I was expecting, I knew pretty much nothing about pregnancy. I mean, only the basics – the possibility of morning sickness + the importance of belly oils to avoid stretch marks, but other than that, I was clueless. Clue. Less.

 

Being so close to the finish line, Olivia could pick her birthday any minute now, I wanted to share with you a few things I’ve learned about pregnancy + becoming a mom + expanding my tolerance for a lot more mess in my life and business. Whether you’re a mom-to-be + new-mom + pro-mom + mom-of-a-furry-creature-or-cactus or wish-to-be-a-mom-one-day, I think you’ll find something of value in this list. Or at the very least you’ll get a good laugh out of some of these.

 

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Here I go, the things I’ve learned while carrying a little pea inside my pod named Olivia Larrinaga Carles:

 

1. Being pregnant is a freaking miracle. We lost our first baby. He’s teeny tiny heart stopped beating around the 3-month ultrasound. The pain we experienced, David + I, was inexplicable. It was the first time in my life I couldn’t “fix” what had happened. And that was very hard for me. That feeling of complete impotence. When we got the news we had been given another chance to be parents, we didn’t care if we were having a girl or a boy, if we were having twins or triplets, if the baby was a Scorpio or a Gemini. Nothing mattered but our love for this new life, this MIRACLE, that was growing inside of me. We just felt so incredibly blessed. They say, babies that follow a loss come from the rainbow. I absolutely believe it now!

 

2. Pregnancy is the happiest reason to feel like crap. Every leg cramp + every food aversion + every sleepless night + every emotional tantrum + every ninja kick that took my breath away in the wee hours of the night… all of it feels irrelevant. I know this may sound masochistic, but I swear, these have been the happiest days of my life.

 

3. My patience is a limited + precious resource that I now guard with my life. These days, the little patience I have left is exclusively reserved for my family + my community + top priority projects. No guilt or shame about it either. I’m not even looking to optimize my patience or apologize for losing my cool when my buttons are pushed. I’m actually enjoying this new “I give a darn about you, if you’re not worth my energy” attitude. Try it, it’s liberating.

 

4. Other peoples bad moods + insults + attitude problems no longer ruin my day. It was about time, right?

 

5. I actually don’t like Oreos that much. I only craved Oreos when they weren’t allowed. When I found out I was pregnant, I let my internal Yedi Council guide my choices. When I removed restrictions + punishment from the equation, I was pleasantly surprised to find out I’m not the Oreo Monster I thought I was. I’m much more of a homemade carrot cake kinda girl. Big revelation.

 

6. Surrounding myself with people who I like + like me back is so important. Having a loving support system of crazy aunties + grannies to laugh about pregnancy symptoms or ask stupid questions, like whether or not I could take bubble baths while expecting, was the biggest blessing. Simultaneously, I divorced every relationship that cost too much effort + time + head aches + constant disillusionment to maintain. Olivia truly gave me the courage to embrace petite committees and fire every whiny + pessimistic + energy sucking vampire in my life who is dimming my glittery eyes without feeling bad about it.

 

7. Life is not that complicated. We complicate things by saying “yes” when what we really wanna say is “no”. I thought it would be hard to clear my calendar + stop overcommitting + make room for baby Olivia. It wasn’t. People are actually pretty cool + understanding when you tell them, “I’m flattered beyond measure that you would think of me for _________, but as you can probably tell my priorities are set on baby making right now. I apologize I can’t do this amazing project justice.”

 

8. Pregnancy is not 9 months, it’s closer to 10 months. I’m kind of neurotic about timing + planning, so finding out the process was an additional month was an unexpected curveball.

 

9. WOW I’m not completely incapacitated. Pregnancy is not synonymous with being sick. What a breakthrough! Of course I’ve had my Unnecessary Freaking Out Over Nothing Episodes post eating the entire Christmas buffet table or a big ass-burger the size of my face all to myself, but other than that, I was very happy to  find out I was able to go about my day-to-day things as usual. Although I’ve noticed I get more doors opened + everyone seems to want to help me at the grocery store. That’s been nice.

 

10. Watching Game of Thrones while pregnant is a terrible idea. Baaaaaad indeed.

 

11. Every dementor has a patronus. All of the changes that happen during pregnancy are so weird that it’s easy to assume there’s a scary new symptom + ache + pain around the corner. But the thing I found surprising is that even the toughest hiccups have remedies. For example, in my 26th week I started experiencing shortness of breath when sleeping on my back. It freaked me out. My doctor recommended adding more pillows + my auntie Aurita gave me this magical Nikken blanket. PUFFF!!! Problem solved! Just like that. I learned that there is always a charm for every curse that stand in the way. Always.

 

12. Some people… GOSH, are seriously annoying. People suddenly felt like it was appropriate to comment on everything, whether it was my weight + the size of my belly + my diet + even my lifestyle decisions for when Olivia is born. If I need breastfeeding tips + morning sickness tricks or any sort of advice for that matter, I’ll seek it – Google it + enroll in a course + hire a mentor + e-mail a friend or ask my mom. Thank you!

 

13. People who don’t give unsolicited advice are my favorite kinda of people. Seriously you guys are awesome!

 

14. People notion of boundaries shift when they find out you’re pregnant. Why? Strangers would randomly grab my stomach + others would over share every detail of their horrifying birth stories. It’s bizarre + I had to keep reminding myself not to take it personally.

 

15. If I didn’t plan for it, it didn’t happen. I was so forgetful about taking my folic acid + my prenatal vitamins until I got a 7 Day Weekly Pill Box Organizer to store my required supplements. As it turns out, just like with any other important project in life, if it’s not scheduled it doesn’t exist.

 

16. Having a baby belly is a lot like having Aladdin’s magical lamp, but better. I’ve asked for frozen yogurt in the middle of the day. Granted. I’ve asked for back massages with lavender oil. Granted. I’ve asked for a very specific color of turquoise napkin for my Life is Messy Kitchen Book Launch Party. Granted. I’ve asked for M&M milkshakes. Granted. I’m gonna miss this for sure.

 

17. Furry creatures know something was up. We have a labrador named Hagrid – Keeper of Keys and Ground of the Larrinaga Carles Headquarters. He’s the size of a jumbo jet + has the personality of an unsupervised puppy dog on sugar high. I was a little nervous when I found out I was pregnant, because he has the tendency to knock you over when he sees you coming with a frisbee. Actually, when he sees you coming, period. But even before we knew a little baby girl was coming, Hagrid strangely became so gentle with me. He stopped tackling me. He suddenly just wanted to cuddle + lick my feet. Something changed that we can’t explain, but I swear, he knew, before we did, that Olivia was coming.

 

18. Belly oil is my BFF. 

 

19. Changes are gradual. I assumed that changes to my body would happen suddenly, to the point where it would be difficult to shave my legs or get out of bed. While both of those tasks are becoming increasingly challenging, the changes have been slow. One time, when I was brushing my teeth, I noticed that I was splashing water everywhere. I thought that maybe something was wrong with the faucet, but realized it was my bump that was getting in the way LOL.

 

20. My choices sculpt our future. There is something about creating life + bringing that life into the world that gives you perspective. Perspective ladies + gentz. I believe our lives are not our own. We are bound to others, past + present. And with each insensible decision + every act of kindness, we give birth to our future. Which is why I’ve been making more environmentally friendly choices, like picking cloth diapers over disposables + installing bamboo flooring instead of something Made in China, and taking greater interest in impacting positive changes in order to leave our Earth a better place for my daughter.

 

21. As my belly grows, so does my heart. While I’ve always considered David to be sweet, I wouldn’t have necessarily labeled him as a particularly sensitive guy, before I got pregnant. But he was overwhelmingly supportive of me every step of the way + watching him whisper into my belly every morning + sing songs to Olivia (her favorite “La Espera” from Cultura Profetica) + play Deepack Chopra audiotapes on fatherhood + take an interest in the smallest details of our baby’s life, brought out a new side of him that I’m absolutely head over heals about. I didn’t think I could love him any more, but seeing him in his new role as a dad has made me realize I was wrong.

 

22. Babies erase your loser scripts. I’ve always been a little self-conscious about my thighs. About my spider veins. About cellulite. About how I look when I put on a bikini. Any body issues or insecurities vanished the second I found out we where gonna be a mommy. Olivia just makes those silly thoughts fly away, like clouds with the wind.

 

23. You really do glow. It’s not just me + my new found over-confidence. Yes moms are excited about becoming moms, but it’s more than that. As it turns out, glowing skin is a very real thing for pregnant women. While pregnant, the amount of blood in our bodies will increase by 50%. The extra blood ends up showing through the skin in many areas, particularly the cheeks. On top of this, our preggo hormones cause the oil glands to become more active, resulting in a softer, shinier appearance. The result is a noticeable glow (aka Mayi feeling like a goddess).

 

24. The father-to-be is also a little pregnant. You should see us at every wedding we go to. We attack that dessert table like a lion attacks his prey. You could swear we are both pregnant. And David heartburn is nothing to joke about either. Call it sympathetic pregnancy or whatever you want. It’s real And, I happen to think it’s the cutest thing ever!

 

25. Pinterest is dangerous. Baby clothes + nursery projects + dressing the bump… oh my! It’s already too late for me, but if you can, safe yourself. Run the other way. That place is a trap.

 

This mama-to-be might have missed out on the mojitos + said sayonara to sushi for nine months, but it was worth every single second of waiting for Olivia. Every. Single. Second.

 

What about you? What lessons did you learn while expecting? Any funny revelations or big aha moments? Leave a comment below + let me know!

 

xo,

Mayi Carles

The Life is Messy Kitchen Book Launch Party Video

I’m so excited to finally be able to share with you this fun little film, which will take you inside my Life is Messy Kitchen Book Launch Party. 

 

To watch, click play!

 

 

I’m eternally grateful to Uber Shop for hosting this messy celebration + to my ridiculously talented videographer Sarah Tyler, for immortalizing this project + bringing it back home.

 

And of course none of this would have been possible without you. THANK YOU for throwing your love + support behind a tiny Panamanian artist with a T-Rex dream to make this book come true. I would have burned it all down without you. You did this. I will never forget that!

 

There’s still time to order your copy of Life is Messy Kitchen. It ships FREE worldwide, but not for much longer!

 

xo,

Mayi Carles

14 Tools I Can’t Live Without (Well, Maybe I Can, But I Don’t Want To)

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This is a question I get asked pretty much everyday, to share what’s inside my toolbox. Today I’m going to talk about a few of my favorite things – tools I can’t live without. Well, maybe I can live without em’, but I choose not to. 

 

You might be surprised to see how very little I need, actually. A few basic supplies + very simple platforms that make life a little easier.

 

But you know what?  At the core of it all, we are already everything. You have you. I’ve got me. Our unique abilities + talents + perspective + skills + ideas + visions + the way we use all that goodness to articulate what we are. Everything else is extra frosting.

 

Here’s my list of favorite frostings… I mean tools:

 

1. 0.5 Mechanical Pencil. Got one in my purse + one in my nightstand + one on the car + one inside my beach bag. It’s my writing tool of choice.

 

2. Micron Ink Pens. When accuracy + minute details + preservation count, there is no pen that stands a chance next to the unparalleled archival quality of Microns. The finer-points are great for technical outline work + the bolder ones are perfect for hand-lettering projects.

 

3. 8.5″ x 11″ White Paper. Fancy right? Were you expecting me to recommend a glamorous sketch book or art journal? The truth is, I tried using a tablet once + many other gadgets, but I always come back to my plain ol’ blank piece of paper. My illustrations all start there, humbly. And that’s good enough for me.

 

4. Giant tube of titanium white paint. I usually buy Americana (or Liquitex when it’s on sale.)

 

5. Of course, other colors too. I splurge on these 3 shades because they’re the ones I use most often in my Design Studio: Natural Buff + Light Portrait Pink + Foliage Green.

 

6. 000 Brushes. Tight, but still flexible. Natural bristle, suited for acrylics. I’ m not loyal to a brand, but I usually know how I want the brush to feel on the canvas + shop accordingly. I usually purchase 20 at a time because they lose their shape quickly, and due to the nature of my work, the moment they get messy hair, they no longer serve their purpose. To give you an idea, I used 38 brushes to complete all the Life is Messy Kitchen illustrations.

 

7. Plastic Paint Pallets with Paint Wells: Here’s where I pour + mix (or not mix, which is what the independent paint wells are for) my paint colors. I love the way they can be completely wiped clean at the end of the day.

 

8. Mrs. Meyer’s Clean Day Liquid Hand Soap. Essential to clean my hands + my brushes too, believe it or not. I used to get these ugly rashes when cleaning with heavy-duty stuff like turpentine. Not anymore. Love Mrs. Meyer’s. Strong enough to remove tough messes + soft enough for my 10 little fingers. My favorite scent is Lemon Verbena.

 

9. Image Scanner. These days I use the Canon CanoScan LiDE 120 Color Image Scanner, Canon’s lowest-cost flatbed scanner. Lets me do high-quality image scans without paying extra for film-scanning features or photo editing software I really don’t need.

 

10. Life is Messy Planners. The organized system for creatives that provides “just enough” structure for your journey to take your brilliant ideas from light bulb to done without becoming a correctional facility, and “just enough” wiggle room to unleash your unique gifts + honor your most valued forms of currency, freedom + happiness. Planners are my BFF. Saved my life a couple of times already. Helped me make room for what truly matters to me + Expecto Patronus any dementor that stands in the way. No wonder it’s not just me using them, but 7 thousand other artists + creatives + innovators + small business owners. Because they were designed by someone who speaks your language… moi.

 

11. MadMimi. This is the e-mail marketing platform I use to send all my e-mails + stay in touch with my favorite people. It’s very intuitive + allows me to create fully customizable campaigns without making my head hurt. Above all, I’m a loyal customer because of their out-of-this-world customer service. Have never seen anything like it. They reply within minutes (if not seconds) to my needy (and sometimes frantic) e-mails, providing quick answers + solutions to my every question. Makes me wonder, maybe MadMimi is operated by minions. It’s the only explanation for their awesomeness.

 

12. Harvest. I used to dread invoicing, then I found Harvest. In my opinion, a simpler + much better way to work + run my business. I use Harvest for all my time tracking + billing needs. Managing clients + organizing projects + preparing invoices has never been so ridiculously easy. One of my favorite features is their seamless integration with PayPal + Stripe, making it less annoying for clients to pay with one click + freeing up my time to bake cookies. Win-win.

 

13. PayPal/Stripe. I use both as my payment processors. PayPal is a trusted brand + has a long history of processing payments on the web. Stripe, well, they are the hottest new payment processor on the block for handling credit card payments in a very secure way. These days, I get about 50% of my orders though PayPal + the other half from Stripe.

 

14. Creative Cloud. For only $40-something bucks a month, I have all the tools + assets I need to create my best work more efficiently. Creative Cloud includes all-new versions of my favorite desktop apps – including Photoshop + Illustrator. These days, when I’m not editing pictures or cleaning up my illustrations on Photoshop, I’m vectorizing my work or creating printables on Illustration.

 

That’s what’s on my go-to kit. Really. You will be given 10,000 options at the art supply store + the Mac store + Amazon + everywhere! My advice? Just stick to your gut + your budget + allow your creativity to take over from there.

 

I know it’s fun to hoard bundles of fancy brushes + expensive software. Trust me, I know. But,  you are your best asset – not the tools. Use what you have. Do what you can.

 

What tools can’t you live without? Any brands + platforms + hacks you’ve tried + fell in love with?

 

Giveaway Winner

As promised, today I’m giving away an autographed copy of Life is Messy Kitchen.

 

And the lucky winner is… Haydee Montemayor!!! Congratulations Haydee. You won. Yay! Please send me an e-mail with your mailing address to ship your gift immediately. So happy for you.

 

I will be hosting more giveaways very soon, so don’t be sad if you didn’t win, okay?

 

xo,

Mayi Carles

The Life is Messy Kitchen Book Launch Party (And A Giveaway)

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So pumped to share with you some pictures + even a short clip of the Life is Messy Kitchen Book Launch Party. I know not all of you could tele-transport to Panama to attend, so I tried to document the event to the best of my abilities to show you a glimpse of what went down. I hope it makes you feel like a little part of you was there.

 

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From the very beginning I knew I wanted this to be a kids-friendly event, so I set up a coloring book table to keep them entertained + of course brought in helium balloons, cuz a party without balloons is really just a meeting.

 

(Everyone who purchased the Life is Messy Kitchen – The BIG Bundle, has access to all these exclusive coloring book pages you see featured in these pictures)

 

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Mom now jokingly calls me “J.K.” She’s still pretty psyched about the amount of people that showed up the party + stood in line to get their books autographs + take a picture with me. I still can’t believe it. For three hours, it truly felt like I was the coolest Disney ride in the block. That was a moment.

 

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Everyone tried to convince me to hire out a catering company, specially being 7-months pregnant n’ all. I didn’t listen. Up to this point I had only cooked for my family + small gatherings with close friends, which was a blessing because I didn’t realize what I had gotten myself into, until it was too late for Plan B.

 

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I couldn’t picture serving fried empanadas at my event or Coke. First, you gotta strap me to my bed before I feed my army with crap. Luckily, it didn’t have to come to that.

 

With the help of my friend + extraordinary chef, Carolina Garcia, we feed more than 250 people that day with nourishing recipes from the book. Here’s what we made:

  • Lentil Quinoa Salad with Raw Vegetables
  • Kung Fu Fighter Sushi with Seasonal Veggies and Tamarin Sauce
  • Banana and Dark Chocolate Granola
  • Heartmade Granola Parfaits with Greek Yogurt and Fresh Berries
  • Mapled Pecans with Rosemary and Orange Zest
  • Peanut Butter Cups
  • Cashew Blueberry Bars
  • Thumbprint Coconut Cookies with Mixed Berries Jam and Pistachios
  • Clean Nutella Spread
  • Pistachios Butter served with Whole Wheat Toast

 

And dad (aka Mr. Life Blends) supplied the beverages:

  • Calypso Royale
  • Vineyard Delight
  • Hazelnut Milk

 

Of course, all these recipes can be found inside the book so you can make them too!

 

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And here’s a little teaser of the mini movie that’s coming. To watch, click play!

 

 

I’m eternally grateful to:

  • Tere + Alessa + Emily from Uber Shop for making me feel at home + being the world’s most amazing party hosts.
  • Susy Aramburú + Sarah Tyler for documenting the event, so one day I can show Olivia what mom did.
  • Truenos y Relampagos + Mairena for killing it with the music.
  • Helga from 4Bistro for helping me decorate the party. This preggo lady could have never done it without you.
  • Chef Carolina Garcia + La Cocina de Sofy for helping me feed 250 attendees.
  • Boutique Flowers for taking my “flower colada” concept to a whole new level of awesome.
  • Studio Marroquin for making me feel pretty.
  • Life Blends for providing my guests with the best juices in the world. They are!
  • Felipe Motta for supplying us with organic wine. Unfortunately, I couldn’t try it, but I hear it was exquisite.
  • My mom + my Suegris for making sure people were feed + everything looked as I had envisioned in my Pinterest board.
  • My wonderful + very patient husband who deserves a Nobel Peace Prize, for packing + unpacking all my crazy party props, including forty helium balloons he somehow managed to fit inside his car, and for entertaining everyone who walked through the door with all the behind the scenes stories of how the book came to be.
  • Everyone who came + to all of you who couldn’t make it, but I know where there in spirit. I felt it, your unconditional love + support. All of it.

 

Thank YOU is not a big enough thing to say to express my gratitude right now. I can’t high five you high enough or hug you tight enough to show you how much I appreciate you. My little book threw a party + you showed up for me, both physically + metaphysically. You are AWESOME!!!

 

Now comes the part I’ve been a little shy about, but it’s time.

 

I Need Your Help

So here’s the deal. I’m not even gonna try to play it cool. Pretend that making this book was easy breeze. That the funds poured in. That I executed the project in record time + under budget. That I got a sweet deal on Shark Tank. That Ellen’s people called.

 

The truth is Life is Messy Kitchen was a ku-raaaa-zy labor intensive passion project. It took 17-months to make from start to finish + a team of incredible human beings to execute + all my life’s savings to self-fund, in full.

 

I feel blessed the book is DONE + far more magical than I had imagined it in my dreams, but the work is far from over. I really REALLY need your help. My growing baby belly doesn’t allow me to jump on planes anymore + do a global book tour or knock on Oprah’s door, but maybe, I’m hoping, there is still plenty we can do, together.

 

Here’s what I have in mind:

  • I’m looking to partner with some cool boutiques + indie shops. Is that you? Do you own a cute store? Wanna be a LIMK retailer + make money together? E-mail me at mayicarles@gmail.com + I’ll send you all the details.
  • I’m also hoping to play in the big leagues with the folks of Whole Foods + West Elm + Barnes & Noble + William Sonoma + Anthropologie. I’m not embarrassed to admit it out loud anymore. That’s where I want to see this book displayed. So if you know someone who knows someone who could get the book in front of the right people, could you please send me their contact info or tell them to write me at mayicarles@gmail.com?
  • I envision mom’s + aunties + best friends + companies purchasing multiple copies of the book to giveaway to their peeps. As a birthday present. As a wedding gift. As a fundraiser favor for VIP donors. Interested? E-mail me at mayicarles@gmail.com + I’ll send you my special rates for bulk orders.
  • Or why not treat yo’ self? Get yourself a copy at www.lifeismessykitchen.com. Your purchase helps keep this creative little empire alive.

 

With your help, I know we can get this lil’ book into Oprah’s Favorite Things list or the Ellen show. I know it. If you’ve seen the book, I know, deep down, you know it totally possible too. This book is so special. It deserves a chance.

 

I can’t wait to get all these book orders into your hands. Into your homes. Into your kitchens.

 

Time For A Fun Giveaway

Let’s play a game. A big part of what made this event extra special, was the fact that every corner, every detail of this party was handmade with love. All you have to do to participate is:

  • Make sure you’re subscribed to my mailing list. The opt-in form is right below the top header. Just plop your name + e-mail + click on the heart+ you’re all set!
  • Leave a comment below listing at least three crafty projects you can spot hidden in the photos and short video teaser above. This is a bit like Playing where is Waldo. But instead of Waldo you gotta spot the DIYs.
  • Share this giveaway at least once on your social media channel of choice. Every additional social share counts as an extra entry. Make sure to use the hashtag #lifeismessykitchen + tag me @mayicarles so I can see your post.

 

It’s that simple.

 

Next week, I will pick a winner. You just may get lucky. Someone has to, why not let it be you? The lucky winner will get a free autographed copy of Life is Messy Kitchen. Yay!

 

xo,

Mayi Carles

 

Photography Credit

Susana Aramburú

 

Video + Video Stills Credit

Sarah Tyler 

I’m So EGGcited. I Just Can’t Hide It! (Plus A Quick Update)

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I’m not one to share my spiritual beliefs publicly. Much less blog about it. I’ve intentionally omitted things like how…

  • I went to an all girls Catholic school.
  • I have big issues with institutionalized religion.
  • I love our new Pope Francisco because he makes me smile + gives me hope.
  • I believe human design is influenced by the stars.
  • I have a San Benito medal in my wallet to protect me from evil spirits.
  • I mostly pray on airplanes, specially when I think it’s going to crash.
  • I believe we are bound to each other, past + present.
  • I don’t think this is my first time here, nor my last.
  • In a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, my heart would always find David. And marry him!
  • I sense there are hairy hands underneath my bed that only come out at night.
  • I think we reincarnate as lizards or barracudas when we are mean to each others.

 

It’s complicated. Which is precisely why I don’t bring this up. Ever.

 

(Wait. What am I doing? I can’t stop writing. Someone tie me to a chair please!)

 

That’s not to say I don’t think about this things, because I do. A lot, actually. I think about faith. About destiny + hope + compassion. And karma.

 

I think about chocolate cover Easter bunnies + Jesus, and how I cannot find one single connection between the two.

 

I think about how the sun always rises. Always. And it is always beautiful. Always.

 

I think about the life that’s growing inside of me + I can’t help but smile eighteen hundred different ways because impossible is proven possible every time she kicks + spins inside my belly.

 

I think about miracles. And I’ve noticed these sneaky little mysteries disappear when I’m reading gossip magazines + being a cynic, and descend outta of nowhere when I’ve got my arms wide open to catch em’.

 

I think about coincidences + I know it’s the Universe saying, “YES!”

 

I think about breathing because it reminds me to turn off everything with an “ON” button. One Mississippi. Two Mississippi. Three Mississippi. The breaths. They talk. The silence. It speaks. The hearts. It knows.

 

I think about magic + trees that can grow through rock + every penny I’ve ever thrown into a fountain, and I know it’s all true.

 

I think about the words I speak + how they become the house I live in.

 

I think about all those times I worried + then… nothing happened. I didn’t die. The world didn’t come to an end. My life wasn’t ruined. I’m still here.

 

I think about these things a lot, the massive concepts that my brain can’t always explain with logic. Maybe more so on days like today, when there is so much chocolate involved.

 

I guess all I’m trying to say is (no matter who you worship or what you believe is hidden inside your closet): I wish you have an EGGcellent weekend filled with joy + wonder. 

 

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A Quick Update About Books

As you might have heard, Life is Messy Kitchen (THE BOOK) arrived just a few days ago. I’m processing orders as quickly as humanly possible in the order they were pre-ordered since it’s soft launch back in November 2014. Of course, with the help of my entire family to Speedy Gonzalez the process.

 

Please remember parcels are traveling all the way from Panama. It takes approximately 3-4 weeks for international orders to arrive at their destination, give or take depending on customs in your country. You can plan to stalk your mailman accordingly.

 

I hope you’ll take a #bookie (selfie with your book) when you get it, so I can make a collage + hang you in my studio + smile knowing we did this, together.

 

Get Your Copy

Haven’t ordered your Life is Messy Kitchen copy yet? Click here to get your book today!

 

This passion project was 100% self-funded, so only a limited number of books were printed. If you know you want a physical copy of your own for your coffee table or kitchen counter, don’t wait until you get your acceptance letter to Hogwarts. It might be too late.

 

I’m so thrilled to see this book in hands others than my own. Thank you endlessly for supporting the projects that keep this tiny creative empire running.

 

I’ll be back next week to share pictures of the Life is Messy Kitchen Book Launch Party.

 

In the meantime, if you love behind the scenes + don’t want to miss out on all that happens in between blog posts, my Instagram account is @mayicarles so you can follow me over there.

 

xo,

Mayi Carles